Our community group is going through Francis Chan’s book Crazy Love this semester and summer. I actually had the opportunity to study it at our church’s Men’s Retreat last year. It’s been shaking me hard to say the least. Many times I have been brought to tears while considering the author’s questions about my faith being lived out.
This week’s reading did just that. Chapter Two is called You Might Not Finish This Chapter. As it suggests it reminded me that I often think it’s only other folks that might die any minute, not me. “I surely won’t be dying at 29 years old.” But, it wasn’t this that got my attention. It was the following paragraph that really spoke to me where I find myself this weekend.
When I am consumed by my problems–stressed out about my life, my family, and my job–I actually convey the belief that I think the circumstances are more important than God’s command to always rejoice. In other words, that I have a “right” to disobey God because of the magnitude of my responsibilities.
I’m leading worship at church this weekend and I have a meeting to lead on Monday night for our community group leaders. Both of these responsibilities have been stressing me out like crazy. I have been thinking in exactly the same ways and, in fact, it’s a pretty regular occurrence for me. I get so busy with things at work and at home that I feel the “right” to disobey God’s Word. It says in Phil 4,
“Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Anyone else relate with this type of behavior/thinking? Do you ever feel like you have the “right” to disobey God? Maybe you think that the things that are stressing you and making you anxious are good and noble things and so it’s alright to be anxious–that you are justified in your worrying. This is certainly the way I can think from time to time. It is good for us to remember God’s Word at all times and in all circumstances. Of course, it has to be mentioned that even if we do disobey and go ahead and worry, we are forgiven if we are in Christ. I rejoice in this! I may still have moments of stress and anxiety this weekend but Jesus understands and forgives me.